Thursday, December 30, 2004
well.. dam sian.. went for my last cs 2dae.. woo~hoo~.. last cs for e' yr.. last cs for my entire life.. woo~Hoo~ time to celebrate.. wahaha... :p bt i gonna miss sharlyn n ppl... :'( bt still.. it's time to celebrate...... wahahaha... :p
2 yrs... 30 cs, 30++ hrs of cs.. 100 hrs of CIP.. woo~hoo~.. all end liao.. FINALLY... FREEDOM IS BACK TO ME!!!! bt my real freedom will onli be back in abt 1 mth time.. after my b'dae.. argh!!!! watever..
well.. sch started late.. ard 1.. almost late again.. haha.. :p dam freakin sian.. watever..
thgs juz nt rite.. i oso dunno how to explain.. i can sense all e' hatred ard mi.. bt i juz dunno how to explain... watever...
gonna do my almond jelly later.. wahaha.. sian.. gonna prepare for food for my picnic tml.. woo~Hoo~.. :o
~fernny~ god bless.. *pray*
caught a falling star @ 10:44 PM
Chpt 6 (love so strong)
She was lost.. totally lost… she dunno wat to do.. she tried her best to find him.. bt she already tried her best…
Fr tt dae.. everitime wen she heard an jing.. tears row down fr her cheeks.. she juz cant control her tears.. an jing let her remind of him.. she hate herself for bein such a naïve girl.. she’ll try to call her hp n hse wenever she’s free to c whether he’ll pick up e’ fone.. she’s livin in dis kind of life for 2 yrs.. in dis 2 yrs.. no one can replace him in her heart.. although she tried to forget him.. bt she cant.. she even dreamt of their marriage.. it’s all too late.. she wanna sae ‘I love u lots’, ‘I’m soli’ n ‘I miss u lots’… it’s all too late.. she lost her chance to sae all dis to him…
caught a falling star @ 10:24 PM
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
forget abt e' sad sad thgs.. lets c some pic to cheer up..
on x'mas eve.. 24th dec'04
our log cake for x'mas.. yummie.. dam nice.. orange flavour de.. :p

blossom n me.. on our way to ps.. on e' bus.. *stuck in e' jam*
in studio on 28th dec'04
jason+fernny+shuk

shuk+me *shock*
jason+me

haha.. lazy to upload other pic liao le.. :p too mani to upload liao le lar.. :p hope u guys will like it.. :p *enjoy ur life till fullest*
caught a falling star @ 11:10 PM
Chpt 5 (love so strong)
She did nt find out anithg wrong till 1 mth later.. she still haven receive ani call fr him.. she finalli made her initiative to call him.. call his hp.. call his hse.. juz like wat he did durin her hospitalization… he’s hp was cancelled.. no one ans his hse fone.. wrote e-mail to him.. no reply.. mail to him.. no reply too… she called his fren.. no one knew wat’s wrong wif him… he was lost.. she finalli noe she’s wrong.. she’s was such a naïve n childish girl.. bt it’s all too late.. he cant find him.. he tried her best to fine him.. bt she juz cant… she even went back to his wrk place.. no one seems to noe wat happened to him.. he juz disappeared into e’ air….
caught a falling star @ 10:57 PM
well.. y my blog skin is black again? simple qn.. simple ans.. cuz.. my life is colourless.. it's juz all black n white.. dun ask me y...
i cried again 2dae.. juz like b4.. i juz couldn control my tears.. i wanna it stop.. bt it juz dun stop.. it keeps flowin n flowin like a waterfall.. my whole pillow is full of my tears.. i'm thinkin of him again... :'( he had left me forever...
was watchin e' news juz now.. i realli understand how e' ppl feel losin their love ones.. tt feelin is realli.. argh!!! juz like u oso feel like it's e' end of world.. u gonna die soon too.. u hv no feelins.. no nth.. u hope u could die wif them.. i had dis feelin wen e' dae he left mi.. n till now.. i still hv dis feelin.. :'( u'll cry n cry n cry n as if there's no tomorrow.. i juz hate dis feelin.. i juz dunno how to sae.. my mind is juz so empty now.. juz feel soo helpless... no one to share ur sadness wif.. ur happiness wif...
well. let's pray for e' ppl hu had passed away again.. n oso pray for missin ppl.. hope to find them asap..
*pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray*
well.. c my previous post? ppl.. plz help.. they realli need ur help.. do u rather throw them or donate them? i'm gonna start packin all my thgs n donate them out.. n i think i'm gonna to NTUC to buy tt dunno $10 vocher n donate to them.. they realli realli need ur help ppl.. so plz help..
~fernny~ may god bless everione...
caught a falling star @ 10:38 PM
well.. *NOTE*
help e' ppl at sri lanka..
collection of essentials i.e. clothing, medicine, dry food ect at 19 Dalhousie lane, behind tekka mall..
thanx.. :p
*spread e' news ppl...
caught a falling star @ 3:50 PM
i'm sick... argh!!! freak!! *headache+fever*
didn go sch 2dae.. dam tire.. slpt dam earli ydae nite after e' panadol.. bt woke up ard 12+.. HEADACHE!!!
mummy woke mi up at 7+ wanna me go sch... headache+fever.. dun feel like goin sch.. bt cannot.. i dunno wat to do for my project!!! tml muz hand in my theory.. den still gt grp wrk to do... argh!!! actualli wanna slp for another 15 mins.. den go wash up.. bt.. i oso dunno.. slpt till 8.30.. woke up by rainie's msg.. omg!! it's 8.30 liao.. so in e' end.. nv go sch liao.. den con't slpin till 12++.. feelin better bt still headache.. argh!! it muz be e' rain!!!!!!!!
later muz do my theory paper liao le.. argh!!! hate projects..
feel sooo guilty.. seems like i didn do anithg for my taskA.. left everithg to my grp mates to do.. *guilty*
~fernny~ *guilty all e' way*
caught a falling star @ 1:48 PM
Chpt 4 (love so strong)
Dae passed.. weeks passed.. mth passed.. n one dae he came n told her tt he had to leave.. he gonna serve NS in abt a mth time.. n fr tt dae onwards.. they seldom meet up…
Fr hrs of call a dae.. became a few daes a call.. as she is young n naïve.. she did nt take e’ initiative to call him.. she keep thinking tt he shld call her.. bt nt her to call him..
Time flies.. e’ last dae they chatted on fone was a few daes after her b’dae..
He sang jay’s an jing.. which is his n her favourite song.. although it’s a sad song… bt they juz love e’ song.. they oso love jay.. he ask her to take care of herself.. cuz he need to serve NS.. n might nth v e’ time to take care of her… e’ fone call was a silent one where both of them were v quiet… silence……
Fr tt dae onwards.. she did nt hear fr him anymore…..
caught a falling star @ 1:02 PM
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
argh argh!!! a huge pimple found on my fore head!!! wat e'.. dam huge n swollen liao le.. help me!!!!!!! maybe tml dun wanna go sch liao if still swollen... :(
almost late for sch 2dae.. forgotten to take my file.. so cannot do my plan in sch.. did my theory paper instead.. well.. 1/2 done.. almost done.. went over to wrk wif e' guys... firman they all n we tok abt ahahaha... :p *underage* bt at least i gt sth done... :p
dam tire now.. gotta slp soon i think... :p haha.. :p havin headache n slight fever.. i'm sick.. realli sick liao le.. i think i gonna skip my watever ms han lesson tml ba.. realli sick of her.. opps.. den somemore.. after lesson.. still muz rush for C.S.. maybe if nt goin ms han lesson..i'll push forward my cs.. dunno..
well.. juz had some pain killer to kill my head pain.. haha.. :p wat e'.. wat tokin me..?? bt tt painkiller made mi slpy.. so.. ppl.. i'm off to bed now.. dun miss mi..
~fernny~ headache+cold+fever=dead
caught a falling star @ 9:25 PM
Chpt 3 (love so strong)
He was bz wrkin.. she was bz studying… bt juz like ani other couples… they spent most of their time together.. he’ll try his best to pick her up after her sch… she will pack lunch for him n eat wif him wenever she’s free…
They will always go shoppin on his off dae.. he tried his best to make her happi…
Well.. they oso did quarrel.. there’s one time they did nt tok to each other for daes.. bt love r jus sooo strong…
There’s one time wen she was hospitalize.. it’s all sooo sudden.. she did nt inform anione.. neither him.. he was picnic.. he called her hp… called her hse.. no one ans.. called her fren.. no one noe… he was lost.. after she was discharged.. he realize she’s wrong.. n dis made her treasure e’ relationship more…
caught a falling star @ 8:42 PM
Monday, December 27, 2004
chpt 2 (love so strong)
he was bz wrkin... she was bz studyin..
she was naive tt time.. she noe she started to like he.. bt due to her ego.. n nt wantin her fren to noe.. she act as if she dun care.. actualli he means a lot to her...
he went after her for a whole 7 mths.. finalli she agreed to give him an ans on his b'dae..
he waited n wait.. finalli it's his b'dae..
she was bz studyin.. as exam is ard e' corner.. went tuition after ssch n didn hv e' time to call him.. her hp was totalli flat at tt time.. he was soo afraid tt sth might happened to she.. he kept sms her.. 1 sms sent.. 2 sms sent... 10 smses..... 20 smses.................... her hp was flooded wif his smses wen she went back hm n check her hp... she was touched by all e' smses.. she noe he was panic.. he was afraid to lose her.. she oso afraid to lose him.. n their love story started tt veri dae.. (to be con't)
caught a falling star @ 9:47 PM
kinda nt in e' mood dis few daes.. bt nvm.. i'll try to be happi..
sch was kinda slack.. usual mon bluzz... haha.. :p at least i did sth lar.. bt i need to re draw everithg.. (onli if gt time.. haha.. :p)
after scch.. met alex.. haha.. :p he gave mi my x'mas present.. woo~hoo~ an ice cream.. + another pendant.. wat e'.. *speechless* pendant is e' best gift dis x'mas? wahaha.. :p bt i like it.. dun worry.. haaha.. :p
gotta start my research asap liao le.. cannot wait liao.. cuz gotta pass up dis thu.. no time liao le.. omg omg omg!!!
i realise... i tend to throw everithg out after my dinner... fr a few dae once to everidae once.. omg!! i muz stop dis.. it's nt gd.. bt i cant stop tt... it's actualli watever bulimia nervosa... if i dun throw out watever i ate for dinner.. i cant slp properli.. argh!! wat e' hell is wrong wif mi!!! i'm so tire after each vomit.. seems tt i lost all energy by forcin myself to throw up.. gettin weaker n weaker each dae... argh!!
~fernny~ i muz stop dis!!!
caught a falling star @ 9:08 PM
well.. 1st of all.. let's us pray for e' ppl out there hu had passed away cuz of e' disaster...
*pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray* *pray*
tt disaster is realli a huge 1.. causes thousands of ppl pass away... causes millions of ppl lost their frenz n family...y ppl will die 1 dae? y y y??
it's realli sad wen u c ur love one go to e' other world.. real sad... real hurt... u juz cant control ur tears....
it's hurt wen u c ur love one leave u for other ppl.. bt it's worst wen he left u to another world.. u juz dunno how will it feel till he left u...
he's in pain.. he try to breath as long as he could... he hope he could stand up n walk to her n sae 'i love u'.. bt it's all too late..
let mi tell u guys a true story...
love so strong.. (a story of he n she)
chpt 1... wen they gotta noe each other..
he n she didn noe one another till thir fren intro them tro fone.. at e' beginin.. they dislike each other.. esp their attitude.. at tt time.. he was in love wif she's fren... he thinks tt she is a flirt.. he oso think she's a flirt.. well time passes.. thinkin changed... esp after their 1st meetin... juz a short n simple dinner.. they hv endless of thgs to tok abt...
slowli.. he n she started to tok more n more.. they realise they actualli hv similar chara n hobbies... sms each other on e' fone everi dae.. n everi nite on they chat e' fone till v late... seems tt they hv endless of thgs to share..
time flies.. love grew..
he started to go after she.. she was afraid n did nt agree.. she was scared tt she'll be e' '3rd party' of he n her fren.. n so rejected him.. true enough.. wen she's fren noe abt it.. she's fren was v angry.. bt did nt show out.. her fren started to sae all e' bad thgs abt her.. bt love overpower everithg... he ignored wat she's fren saed n wanna she to ignore it too... they ignored everithg.. ignored huever saed abt them... their love grew each dae... (to be con't)
~fernny~ sad sad..
thanx alex for e' present.. :p
caught a falling star @ 6:43 PM
argh!!! wat m i doin?? i'm lost.. totalli lost.. i hv no idea wat i'm doin.. wat i gonna do.. i'm realli lost w/o u.. u cant guide mi along my way.. i cant spend my life wif u... my life juz seems so lost w/o u beside me.....
in sch.. hv nth better to do.. slack e' whole dae.. i cant wrk.. i cant concentrate... my whole mind is all abt u.. i cant wrk.. u realli drove mi crazy!!!
~fernny~ u drive mi crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
caught a falling star @ 1:43 PM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
haiyo... oso dunno wat to sae.. i'm dam confused... dam dam confuse...
watched tt charity show juz now.. he came into my mind... e' way he sing an jing is totally e' same as sly... i dunno to hate him or love him?? omg omg.. memories of him came back... i cried.. i cried.. bt still... he cannot come back to me... :'(
it's sooo unfair.. it's all sooo sudden.. life is so cruel...
was tidyin my letters juz now... saw e' letters he wrote... tears flow.. he's nt mine animore.. nv ever.. bt he'll always in my heart... e' little bear he gave... i wan him back to me.. i wan... bt i cant... daes passed.. weeks passed.. mths passed.. n yrs passed.. bt i still cannot forget him.. still rmb 2 yrs ago.. he was still by my side.. n 2 yrs later.. i'm all alone.. all by myself.. i cry alone.. no one share my sadness wif.. no one share my happiness wif.. where r u?
i realise i'm so naive.. i'm so childish.. i regreted.. if i could make a first move 2 yrs ago.. everithg will change.. if i could be more mature.. maybe everithg will be different.. everithg was too late.. i cant even sae i love u.. i miss u n i'm soli... nv ever... bt i swear.. i love u more den wat u think...
everithg was so sudden.. everithg seems sooo fast.. fr e' 1st dae i noe u.. till e' dae he brought away... y cant u let mi noe wat happened n let mi spend more time wif u? y r u sooo cruel?
after u left me.. i realise.. i love u more den wat i think.. i regreted.. bt it's all too late..
i dunno to hate u or to love u.. u bluffed mi.. sayin u r goin ns.. u had to leave me.. i did nt realise u wanna a break up till e' dae ur bro came to look for mi.. until i read tt letter u wrote again... it's all too late.. i tot i can forget u... bt.. i cant.. realli cant..
at 1st i was angry.. dam angry.. i tot u wanna a silence break as u nv ans my call n nv even call mi.. i gave up... life has to go on for mi w/o u.. i didn noe wat's wrong wif u.. i'm to naive to think so much.. i juz gave everithg up..
in dis 2 yrs.. i had gone into 2 other relationship.. bt i realise.. i still cant forget u.. u juz cant get out of my heart..
i miss e' time u kiss mi.. hug mi.. i miss e' time u cheer mi up wen i'm down.. bt it's now all memories...
i hate cancer... realli hate tt.. cancer took away both my beloved grandma n u.. can someone juz kill mi so tt i can spend more time wif u guys?
fate n life r juz too cruel to me.... i had enough.. dun take them away plz.. if u wan.. juz take mi away instead of them...
~fernny~ i realli miss u lot.. love u lot.. STAB ME IN MY HEART!! PLZ....
caught a falling star @ 10:12 PM
Saturday, December 25, 2004
1st dae of x'mas comin to an end soon... v soon... :p juz a few mins to 26th.. 1 more week to new yr.. woo~hoO~.. i gotta check where gt cheap hotel for us to stay next week.. wahha.. :p
well.. nt goin johor for new yr animore...
mum is naggin at us fr ydae nite.. cuz we'r hm late at nite.. no.. is earli in e'mornin... :( watever.. used to it liao.. cuz of e' dogs.. they barkin like hell.. watever.. :p tt din spoil my mood ok.. :p
actualli wanna go church in e' mornin.. n umar's hse.. in e' end.. na.. did nt go...
woke up late 2dae.. ard 2++ dam tire.. so couldn attend church service... had another nap ard 4++.. haha.. :p didn hv a nice slp actualli.. slpt ar ard 5+ in e' mornin. den woke up ard 9.. den couldn slp till 11+... n slpt all e' way to 2+ hahha.. :p tt's dam little okok.. :p
had a x'mas dinner.. so.. didn go to umar's place... dam sian.. dinner at NS.. den walk ard to wait for da jie.. after tt hm sweet hm... :p
dam tire.. gotta slp soon i think.. :p aha..
~fernny~ may ur wishes come true.. :p
opened all e' present 2dae... thanx ppl for all ur present.. love them lots lots... received lots lots of choco n pendant dis yr... haha.. :p wahaha.. :p thanx ppl.... *muacks* fernny loves u..
caught a falling star @ 11:57 PM
ho~ho~ho~ merry x'mas.. it's x'mas it's x'mas... i think 2dae is e' memorable dae i had... i swear!!! dam fun dae.. juz reach hm fr cicil's hse.. :p
went to sch as usual.. had lect.. den exchange present... gt present fr some fren.. love all e' present okok.. :p made almond jelly for them.. yummie yum yum.. :p after sch.. we (me, rainie, juan, jingfang, shuk, umar n jason) went to taka.. wanna makan seoul garden.. wat e'.. fully bk.. den i went hm.. dam rush 2dae.. went to change den met them again at seoul garden marina sq.. :p haha.. :p dam fun lor.. tokin all craps.. blah blah...
went orchard.. cuz jazzon n rainie wanna buy x'mas present... shop ard.. in e' end.. nv meet tiffie.. cuz she onli can meet us at 7.. did some last min shoppin for toby n blossom... walk ard far east n noe hu i saw!!! IAN n SIUCHUNG... went to meet sc n fishy after tt.. was late for an hr.. sooo soli.. *feel soooo guilty*
went to makan sakae sushi.. dam dam full.. din realli eat tt much lar.. den jr last min ask us go cicil hse.. :p went to did some realli last min shoppin for cicil n jr... n bought a log cake.. nt bad.. orange log cake..
tob n zhuang was like.. behind us onli.. well.. toby slim down.. yz became taller.. bt still e' same.. BLUR!!
was eatin n tokin at cicil hse till 10++ n we went down to orchard.. wat e'.. jam.. alight at newton n we walk all e' way to PS.. wahaha.. -_- almost an hr walk okok.. on our way.. wat e'.. e' ppl there keep sprayin all e' form.. n i juz dam dam dam sticky... finalli reach PS.. wanna watch movie.. no movie watch.. so i wanna go clubbin.. bt jason msg n sae janice n others was caught.. wat e'.. so decided nt to go down n went to cicil hse again.. we bought some drink to her hse.. tok n tok n tok.. drink n drink n drink... n i feel soooo bad... blossom was like.. almost drunk.. feel dam bad... bt dam fun oso.. bt.. onli mi, toby n blossom drink.. e' rest nv drink... nt fun.. watever.. n blossom was tokin nonsense.. singin nonsense wif tt guitar.. bt realli fun.. realli made everione there laugh... :p
played watever pictionary or sth like tt.. juz for a while.. cuz everione need to go hm liao le.. dam fun lor.. juz endless of laughter 2dae.. :p
~fernny~ wishes everione a merry x'mas.. :p
thanx to ppl hu wish mi merry x'mas 2dae.. esp eugene hu call fr brunie.. glad to hear fr u... *well.. doubt u c dis* n oso leslie.. so sweet of him.. call n wish mi merry x'mas.. haha.. :p
realli had a lot of fun 2dae.. i swear i swear.. esp at cicil's hse.. i realli enjoy myself to e' fullest.. :p thanx ppl.. esp sc, fishy, cicil, toby, blossom, jr.. realli had a great time wif u guys 2nite.. :p
*last song for dis x'mas... white x'mas.. cuz 2dae.. e' whole orchard is dam white... covered wif form....
caught a falling star @ 4:06 AM
Friday, December 24, 2004
i'm lost... totalli lost...
2004 is comin to an end n 2005 is comin... well.. hope 2005 will be a better yr for mi...
u muz be tired cuz u keep runnin through my mind...
u muz be a thief cuz u hv stolen my heart
n u muz be a bad shooter cuz i keep missin u....
omg omg omg... i miss him!! feel soooo terrible now.. dam terrible.. feel like cryin.. bt i juz cant... feel TERRIBLE!!! i oso dunno wat i wanna do.. feel sooo mix up... kinda hv a feelin tt.. I'M DYING!!!
caught a falling star @ 1:16 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
some pic taken 2dae..:p
fernny n umar...
shuk, me n jason..
shuk n me..
caught a falling star @ 9:45 PM
i cried.. cried n cried non stop... FINALLY... i managed to cry.. after so mani daes.. i finalli cried.. feel much more relieve after cryin.. :'( cry is still e' best thg to do to relieve all dis thg... thanx jj for bein by my side..
watever.. almost late for sch 2dae.. wahaha.. :p cuz of tt stupid MRT lar.. wat e' hell... watever.. quite slack in sch... after lect. it's tiffy's b'dae 'party'.. kana forced to eat her cake.. -_- in e' end shared wif jason tt cake.. haha.. :p did some case study wif tiffy, tuson n some other guys.. wat e' hell!!! they realli bo liao lor... use paper clips to clip on themself.. haa.. :p
tt's usaid
n tt's firman..
wat e' hell rite.. haha.. -_-
play wif them while doin case studies.. :p den went to tok tok to e' usual few abt tml's lunch.. wat e'... we laugh till stomach pain lor.. dam dam dam funny lor... realli bth sia... wahaha.. :p after tt.. hm sweet hm.. :p
sian.. gotta do almond jelly later.. haven do.. wahhaa.. :p den still gt someone's present haven wrap.. omg omg.. still gt sth else haven do.. wat e'.. help me help me help me!!!
~fernny~ thanx bein by my side.. :p
caught a falling star @ 9:30 PM
i'm feelin better now.. :p after tokin to some ppl.. :p thanx ppl.. u shld noe hu u r.. :p well.. tryin to think of e' brighter side.. okok.. i'll be more zhi ai de.. dun worry..
toby is back... finalli.. haha.. :p gonna meet him 1 dae wif blossom too.. :p both of them r back.. FINALLY!!!
wahaha.. :p saw e' news juz now.. guess wat... cyc on e' news.. wahaha.. :p -_- my sis sae he slim down a lot.. *cannot let him noe.. later he bhb.. haha.. :p*
~fernny~ i noe i'm nt loneli... :p
n lastli.. it's 23th dec.. n it's tiffy's b'dae.. happi 18th b'dae to u.. finalli legal to smoke n drink liao hor.. *envy* wahaha.. -_- all e' best wor.. :p
caught a falling star @ 12:03 AM
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
sad sad sad sad.... :( i juz couldn control my emotion... :'( argh!!!! i oso dunno lar... thgs juz dun seems to be rite 2dae... argh!!! in sch.. at hm n everithg... :( *speechless* i'm juz noboby to everione... :(
woke up ard 5++.. it's eugene... he went to brunie liao le.. he's goin for a yr... he msg mi on his way to his base... :p well..gonna miss him... :p haha.. watever...
sch dam f* sian.. i'm juz too sensitive liao le... thgs dun seems rite for mi.. juz.. i oso dunno how to sae... :( watever... CRS dam sian... n tt lect was like.. SPEECHLESS!!! she dun believe i gt D7 for my eng.. wahaha.. :p watever... :p went off quite earli.. rushin to novena to meet jj.. haha... :p he changed.. totalli changed.. became more gentleman liao le.. n more yandao liao wor.. haaha... :p met him for a while.. cuz he need to go there buy sth.. n mi too... :p met ailin a while after jj cuz need to wait for da jie.. went bugis to buy sth den hm sweet hm.. haha... :p
gonna make almond jelly tml..wahaha.. :p yummie yummie... :p
~fernny~ sad sad sad sad... he's gone... :(
caught a falling star @ 8:49 PM
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
it's tue... slowli.. it'll be wed n thu n fri n sat!!! it's x'mas... :p well..
dear santa... can u grant mi all my wishes?? i may be selfish.. bt.. grant mi all my wishes plz... all i wan for x'mas is him.. be wif him... n he'll be back by my side... can u grant mi dis wish? well.. tt's impossible.. i noe.. :( n oso.. my family n frenz to be happi n healty esp my granny...
came straight hm after sch w/o goin aniway... can u guys believe it? wahaha. :p well.. it's true.. cuz gt dinner.. :p celebration of dunno wat lar.. haha.. watever.. sch... quite slack actualli till we went library.. i started to do sth then... :p
on my way hm.. guess hu i saw?? aha... steven.. he juz stand beside mi lor... woo~hoo~ tt feelin dam shiok sia.. wahaha.. :p bt dam pai sei.. i was dam chor lor then.. cuz tokin to vivian on fone.. wat e'... let him c my chor lor tt side... omg omg!!! wahahaha.. :p watever.. nice seein him.. bt wat e'.... nv take his no. wahaha.. :p
dam hungry wen i reach hm... drank 2 bowls of soup.. dam delicious sia.. juz love tt soup.. :p yummi yum yum... :p slack slack den dinner.. :p yummie yummie... n noe wat.. while watchin tv.. there's carollin ard my hse n they came to my hse... sooo nice... n they gave mi a santa bell as my x'mas present... haha.. :p e' usual few fr e' church wif tt baby... :p it's e' 1st time i receive door to door carollin.. feel soooo nice... :p
~fernny~ sian sian sian... santa.. can u grant mi all my wishes?
to eugene.. :p leavin soon liao wor.. all e' best in everithg wor... dun miss mi too much leh.. i'll guilty de.. haha.. -_- dun worry lar.. 1 hr v fast de lar.. bon voyage.. n somemore.. dun worry.. u r nt forgotten wor.. :p best wishes fr fernny... :p
caught a falling star @ 9:18 PM
Monday, December 20, 2004
juz reached hm.. dam tire.. haven bath... yeee.. yucks.. haha.. :p well.. went orchard after sch wif da jie n er jie.. :p
sch was dam slack.. as usual.. cuz it's a mon.. haha.. :p nth to do actualli.. :p
kana bully by alvin n dennis on e' train to orchard.. so ke lian me.. :( watever.. :p met da jie n er jie.. finalli finish buyin all e' stuff liao.. was dam happi liao.. bt... headache liao le... cuz maybe meetin my 4e2 frenz... gotta headache on e' present again.. :p watever... :p i think i noe wat to buy liao le lar.. haha.. :p stil dunno where to go on x'mas.. headache... nvm.. :p chuang dao qiao tou zhi ran zi.. or sth like tt lar.. haha.. :p
watever.. i finalli bought my tube top... n bought another tee.. haha. :p my x'mas present for myself.. haha... :p
~fernny~ a day spendin lotsa $$
caught a falling star @ 9:07 PM
Sunday, December 19, 2004
sad sad... argh!!! oso dunno how to sae.. watever..
woke up quite late 2dae.. 1++ haha.. :p dam tire u noe.. den did some hse wrk... tok 2 sky in e' afternoon.. n guess wat.. i think he change to a better person liao le.. can u guys believe tt? haha.. :p i swear.. he ask mi study.. he oso wanna study after his ns.. omg omg.. m i tokin to sky? bt he's dam stress abt his ns thg... mr sky.. dun sooo stress okok.. :p think of mi den u'll nt stress liao le.. haha.. :p jkjk.. ;p
went off for a swim.. :p same place wif same ppl... :p n guess wat... went toilet wif er jie.. n outside there i saw baobei.. :p sooo qiao rite.. haha.. :p swim swim n swim.. i oso din noe i swim for 7 or 8 laps.. keep thinkin abt all e' stuff n realli din notice i had swim for such a long distance... :p haha.. :p
watever.. sian.. tml gt sch.. soooo sian... argh!!! can i dun go sch? can can can? dam tire.. headache now.. how? i think i'm fallin sick.. can i gt mc tml? some more... tml is mr tay's lesson... 2 hrs leh.. gonna die liao le lar.. how m i goin to survive in tt 2 hrs? omg omg omg...!!!!!!
~fernny~ sad sad sad... :(
aiya.. lastli.. how could i forget.. happi b'dae to 2 ppl..
1stli.. happi 17th b'dae to sc.. my great buddies in my sec sch.. miss u sooo much.. wen will be our next outin? i miss goin out wif u guys..
n lastli.. tt's my sweat heart corine.. :p aha... old liao le wor.. happi 19th b'dae to u.. :p soli nv join ur b'dae party 2dae... u shld now y.. bt dun worry.. i'll meet u 1 dae n pass u ur present... dun haunt mi liao okok.. :p
to both of u.. happi b'dae wor.. all e' best in everithg.. take care care n forget mi nt.. n of cuz.. frenz forever.. :p *muack* fernny loves u..
caught a falling star @ 10:49 PM
songgie time.. :p Rudolph The Red Nosed Reindeer
Rudolf, the red-nosed reindeer
had a very shiny nose.
And if you ever saw him,
you would even say it glows.
All of the other reindeer
used to laugh and call him names.
They never let poor
Rudolf play in any reindeer games.
Then one foggy Christmas eve
Santa came to say:
"Rudolf with your nose so bright,
won't you guide my sleigh tonight?"
Then all the reindeer loved him
as they shouted out with glee:
"Rudolf the red-nosed reindeer,
you'll go down in history!"
caught a falling star @ 3:45 AM
wahaha.. :p gt e' wrong info.. nt realli wrong info... is tt.. my sis c wrongli.. e' suntec midnite sales is actualli ydae midnite.. haha.. :p nvm.. in e' end i went ktv wif them.. juz reached hm.. dam dam tire.. :p
*i think he's angry wif mi* :( how how how? argh!!! soli..
went suntec after dinner.. haha.. :p 9+ already a lot of shop close liao lor.. haha.. :p den went cafe cartel drink drink n ICE CREAM!!! haha... :p went careforre to c whether steven there.. haha.. :( sad.. he's nt there.. soooo sad.. den actualli wanna go mt faber de.. in e' end.. pass by china town... da jie suggest to go ktv instead... so.. we went ktv.. :p haha.. :p dam fun... sing sing sing... :p
~fernny~ so soli abt wat i had said... :( bt i'm realli dam angry abt wat had happened dis few daes... dam pissed off by someone... dis few daes r juz nt my dae.. bt hope everithg will be alrite after 2dae.. :p
caught a falling star @ 3:35 AM
Saturday, December 18, 2004
wat e' f* is dis..!!!!! kana pang sei by soooo mani ppl 2dae.. actualli shld be out 2dae... bt.. haiz.. all last min cannot make it.. esp jj.. WHEN IS MY MOVIE THREAT??? haha... will nv blame u guys.. dun worry... :p watever...
dam dam dulan abt sth... argh!! wat e' f* iis dis!!!!!
guys r soooo irresponsible...!!!! guys r soooo selfish.....they wan to hv everithg... hv everi girl they like.. y? tt's impossible lor.. if u hv a gd now.. plz stop goin after other girls.. u'll nt onli hurt 1 girl.. bt 2 or more.. so wat if both girls like u? love u? it's totalli impossible for u 2 hv 2 girls at a time..
~fernny~ hate my life!!!
caught a falling star @ 5:40 PM
Friday, December 17, 2004
sian sians sian... :( wanna go out to shop... sooo mani ppl at orchard...
still thinkin wanna buy e' compact casin not... $20+compact $47.... haiz... better nt lar... waste $$... watever...
if nt wrong... was earli for sch 2dae... can u believe it? n tt stupid dao kia alvin.. dun reg mi... wat e' -_- watever... :p till i call him.. haha.. :p sch.. dam sian.. nth much to do actualli.. juz slack n slack... tok n tok.. sing n sing... haha.. :p went for gems 2dae.. wat e'... onli 16 ppl n onli 4 gers.. gonna faint.. n e' guys.. OMG!! 2 wrds to sae... ER XIN!!! tt's it... haha.. :p opps.. :p shhhhh... had lect after tt.. ahaha.. :p tok 2 hai e' whole dam lect.. dam f* sian... huever alan tan or wat.. haha.. :p
went orchard after sch wif rainie n juan.. shop ard to buy present... wat e'.. realise there's sooo mani thgs to buy... argh!!! watever.. dam tire.. bt force myself to shop...
met siss after tt.. den hm sweet hm.. dam sinful.. :( ate a lot 2dae... had yong tao fu in e' afternoon for branch at sch... den had LJS fish wrap meal n some desert n junk food for dinner... omg omg.. ate sooo much.. den somemore.. later gt bird nest to makan... yummie yum yum.. :p *aha.. dun jealous ok*
~fernny~ soooo sinful...
finalli jj called.. =.= he'd join our single society liao le.. haha.. :p opps.. no is.. sooo sad.. nvm.. dun worry.. jj.. dun sad.. dun forget.. u still hv mi.. :p no lar.. u still hv e' whole bunch of us.. rite.. or u wan mi to help u match make? i'll help u de.. :p dun worry.. bt soon.. i confirm u'll sure in love wif single.. :p watever.. ignore me.. i'm juz bein bo liao.. :p
caught a falling star @ 9:55 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
song of e' dae... The Twelve Days Of Christmas
On the first day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree.
On the second day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Two turtle doves and a partridge in a pear tree.
On the third day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the fourth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the fifth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the sixth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the seventh day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Seven swans a-swimming, six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the eighth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Eight maids a-milking, seven swans a-swimming, six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the ninth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Nine ladies dancing, eight maids a-milking, seven swans a-swimming, six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the tenth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Ten lords a-leaping, nine ladies dancing, eight maids a-milking, seven swans a-swimming, six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the eleventh day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Eleven pipers piping, ten lords a-leaping, nine ladies dancing, eight maids a-milking, seven swans a-swimming, six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the twelfth day of Christmas, my true love gave to me
Twelve drummers drumming, eleven pipers piping, ten lords a-leaping, nine ladies dancing, eight maids a-milking, seven swans a-swimming, six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings.
Four calling birds, three French hens, two turtle doves
And a partridge in a pear tree.
caught a falling star @ 11:29 PM
such a long dae 2dae...
woke up earli in e' mornin.. went joggin wif da jie... den went back hm bath n cont wif my slp... wahaha.. :p den sooo mani thgs happened.. dun wanna mention it here.. :p
throw everithg out after my breakfast.. gastric dun realli feel well 2dae...
went to serangoon wif rainie n jingfang... :p met umar they all there... :p waited for e' rest at e' mrt station... :p dam fun lor... haha.. :p watever..
everione dam blur lor.. dunno which stop to alight... haha.. :p e' whole bus like full of our laughter... -_- den walk to tt hse.. RAIN!!! wat e'... share a umbrella wif rainie n jingfang.. ahaha.. :p somemore.. walk e' wrong way.. :p
dam sian... dam hot.. dismiss earli... mi went to meet da jie.. rainie n jingfang went hm.. e' rest went makan prata... :p
went causeway pt wif da jie to meet er jie.. walk ard to wait for mummy n daddy... :p after dinner.. went to my cousin's hse.. c her babi... sooooo cute n tiny... real tiny lor.... dam cute n active oso...
went hm after tt.. juz reach hm nt long ago... :p feel soooo fresh after a bathe.. :p dam dam tire.. gonna slp earli 2dae.. :p
~fernny~ tire bt fun dae... i think i'm gonna sick soon.. headache n sorethroat now.. HELP!! feelin cold.. :( a bit feverish... fone soooo quiet 2dae.. idiot jj... promise to call mi.. bt i wanna slp le lar... :( bluff mi... :(
caught a falling star @ 11:12 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
argh!! i had enough!! i hate my life.. watever... life is realli sux for mi... &^#*%$*&#^
2dae.. quite late for sch.. couldn wake up.. wahaha.. as usual.. bt.. luckily.. i gt att. cuz lect started late.. wahaha.. lucky me.. :p sian.. whole mornin lect.. nv realli pay attention.. dam sian...
had oc.. opps.. nope.. is watever.. crs.. critical reasonin skill.. watever.. had a new lect.. didn realli gv mi a gd impression... she.. wat e'.. dam dam dam borin lor.. realli dyin soon in her lesson...
went suntec after sch wif rainie n siss.. so soli to jazzon n rainie wor.. haha.. :p watever.. :p shop ard.. den went hm.. didn c anithg i like.. gonna go shoppin on fri again.. shop for x'mas pressent.. i haven buy ani lor.. soooo mani to buy.. *headache*
2dae is e' 15th.. heard tt blossom is comin back 2dae... izzit? dunno.. he dun wanna tell mi.. bad bad him... :( miss him n tob.. n of cuz all of 4e2.. :p i miss lots of ppl.. my baobeiz too.. haven pass them their present... miss my daddy too... dunno he found wrk liao nt.. miss my wrkin pals.. miss wrkin wif them... miss lots n lots of ppl...... wahaha... well.. gettin more n more long winded haha.. :p nite all...
~fernny~ miss u... esp him...
caught a falling star @ 10:06 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
song for 2dae.. Amazing Grace
decided to use dis song.. as it can use for x'mas.. n oso for memories of him too.. wish him all e' best n may god realli bless him...
ming.. wo ai ni...
Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I was once lost
But now am found
Was blind but now
I see'Tis Grace that taught
My heart to fear
And Grace my fears relieved
Now precious dear
That Grace appear
The hour I first believed
Through many dangers
Toils and snares
I have already come
'Tis Grace has brought
Me safe this far
And Grace will lead me home
When we've been there
Ten thousand years
Bright shining as a sun
We've no less days
To sing God's praise
Than when we first begun
Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I was once lost
But now am found
Was blind but now I see
caught a falling star @ 10:27 PM
fotos taken at botanical garden 2dae..
mi n juan at orchid garden
shuk shuk n mi.. haha.. :p
mi, jazzon n 1/2 of shuk's face... *poor photographer*
jazzon n fernny.. *i look like shit here*
tiffy n me.. *she's wearin ah ma's spec..* opps.. wahaha.. nice spec actualli.. :p
caught a falling star @ 10:15 PM
sob sob... auntie visit... stomach cramp now... sob sob..
went botanical garden 2dae.. fun dae actualli.. took quite a lot of pic... as usual.. upload later...
was late to botanical garden... cuz there's no cab.. watever... bt we'r nt e' latest okok.. :p walk ard there.. foolin ard.. had a lot of fun.. haha.. :p
went orchard after tt.. dam tire.. real tire..
although i'm happi 2dae.. bt.. i'm still thinkin abt him.. he's gone.. realli gone n nt comin back... his bro passed mi some of his stuff juz now.. real sad... *cried*
his bro called mi ydae nite.. luckily i haven cancel my old line.. n i met him 2dae... everithg was sooo sudden.. till now i still cannot accept tt... he's gone... 99+1 letters fr him.. mostli written at hospital.. ya.. hospital.. m i dreamin? he's gone? realli? can someone tell mi it's juz a dream.. i'm dreamin.. can someone wake mi up fr e' dream? although some letters contain juz a few sentences... bt it's enough for mi to noe wat he wanna sae... he chose to let go.. cuz he dun wanna c mi sad.. well.. bt.. wen i noe wat happened now.. i'm more sad.. much more sad.. well.. igmore wat i've type.. i oso dunno wat i wanna sae.. it's sooo confusin...
~fernny~ he's gone... gone.. n gone..........
caught a falling star @ 9:54 PM
Monday, December 13, 2004
2dae's song.... Angels We Have Heard On High
Angels we have heard on high,
Singing sweetly through the night,
And the mountains in reply
Echoing their brave delight.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
Shepherds, why this jubilee?
Why these songs of happy cheer?
What great brightness did you see?
What glad tiding did you hear?
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
Come to Bethlehem and see
Him whose birth the angels sing;
Come, adore on bended knee
Christ, the Lord, the new-born King.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
See him in a manger laid
Whom the angels praise above;
Mary, Joseph, lend your aid,
While we raise our hearts in love.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
Gloria in excelsis Deo.
caught a falling star @ 11:45 PM
1st dae of sch...
sch was fun... did nth bt tok tok n tok... wahaha.. :p
as usual.. met rainie at tiong bahru.. ahaha...
den met juan at dover... walk to studio... well.. as usual... LATE!!! wahaha.. :p nt v late lar.. nvm lar... tok non stop wif rainie durin mr tay's lec.. tokin abt steven.. woo~hoo~ wahaha.. gonna burst her ears... n idiot.. habib sae i'm noisy.. sooo sad.. i'm nt okok... long break i had 2dae.. fr 11.30 to 2.. woo~hoo~ den briefin on next project.. dam tire.. nt in e' mood to tok already... sooo quite diam.. wahaha.. :p
tml no sch... goin to botanical garden.. wahaha... den thu.. goin to e' site i'm wrkin on... at serangoon sia... sian 1/2.. muz hv a koi pond n spice garden.. wat e'.. y muz hv spice garden.. somemore go botanical garden tml.. sian.. hope dun rain... dun hv sun.. woo~Hoo~
went orchard wif siss after sch.. on my way there.. dam idiot.. there dis 2 guys.. take my pic.. sooooo angry... stare at them.. they pretend nv c mi... went orchard makan.. den walk ard.. saw dis top fr forever21.. dam nice.. last piece.. bt.. sooo mani ppl tryin.. dun wanna wait liao.. so nv buy.. :( sob sob... went to buy donut... yummie... went to NS.. saw ailin.. wahaha.. :p
juz now tok 2 my baobeizzz... miss them lotzzz...
~fernny~ miss him lot lotsss wahaha.. -_- i'm realli crazy liao le..
p/s.. i'm nt goin into ani relationship now.. plz plz plz... STOP ASKIN ME!!!
caught a falling star @ 10:47 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2004
song of e' dae.. Greensleeves
What child is this, who, lay to rest,
on Mary's lap, is sleeping
Whom angels greet with anthems sweet,
while Shepards watch are keeping
Chorus
This, this is Christ the King whom
Shepards guard and angels sing
Haste, Haste, to bring him laud,
The babe, the son of Mary
Why lies he in such mean estate
where ox and ass are feeding?
Good Christian, fear; for sinners here the silent
Word is pleading
Chorus
So bring Him incense, gold, and myrrh come,
peasant, King, to own him;
The King of kings salvation brings,
let loving hearts enthrone Him
Chorus
Version 2
Alas, my love, you do me wrong,
To cast me off discourteously
For I have loved you well and long,
Delighting in your company
Greensleeves was all my joy
Greensleeves was my delight,
Greensleeves was my heart of gold,
And who but my lady greensleeves
Your vows you've broken, like my heart,
Oh, why did you so enrapture me?
Now I remain in a world apart
But my heart remains in captivity
I have been ready at your hand,
To grant whatever you would crave,
I have both wagered life and land,
Your love and good-will for to have
If you intend thus to disdain,
It does the more enrapture me,
And even so, I still remain
A lover in captivity
My men were clothed all in green,
And they did ever wait on thee;
All this was gallant to be seen,
And yet thou wouldst not love me
Thou couldst desire no earthly thing,
but still thou hadst it readily
Thy music still to play and sing;
And yet thou wouldst not love me
Well, I will pray to God on high,
that thou my constancy mayst see,
And that yet once before I die,
Thou wilt vouchsafe to love me
Ah, Greensleeves, now farewell, adieu,
To God I pray to prosper thee,
For I am still thy lover true,
Come once again and love me
caught a falling star @ 10:57 PM
at juliet's hse.. playin wif puppies...
e' 3 puppies.. cute rite... 2 male n 1 female
milk milk time...
suckin.. drinkin milk.. :p soooo cute..
after drinkin milk...
learnin to walk...
they r juz soooo small...
there r much more pics.. if u guys wan.. i'll send to u guys.. haha.. :p
caught a falling star @ 9:32 PM
tire tire... soooo sian.. sch reopen liao le... SIAN!!! i gonna miss my hols.. :..( sob sob
had a heavy breakfast 2dae.. *gastric pain* so ke lian rite... did hsewrk... den.. out we go.. went to c puppies... sooooo cute... upload e' pic later.. u'll sure love them okok.. :p den went suntec again... da jie need to change her clothes... well.. bought a new top n a bottom.. wahaha.. :p both black... thinkin wanna skip sch on wed nt.. *thinkin* gt polo sales leh... i wanna go... shld i skip sch? argh!!! dunno... watever.. need to buy a new black tube top so tt i can wear my new top.. wahaha.. :p
wat shld i bring to sch tml? erm erm... myself.. wahaha.. :p watever.. i dun feel like goin sch... bt i miss my frenz.... long time nv c them liao.. 6 whole week i think... :p finalli... gotta c them tml... bt.. dam dam sian.... juz hate sch....
~fernny~ can i skip sch? sch is soooooo far......... far fr my hse... far fr mrt station.... sian 1/2.. :( can i hv more hols?
caught a falling star @ 9:06 PM
wahaha.. :p so late den blog.. cuz juz now bz doin my editin of fotos.. :p
went to collect my cable dis afternoon after goin to a pet shop, oso at tpy... wahaha.. :p i think e' 2 guys sellin mi e' cable already bth liao le... wahaha.. :p watever.. :p
went down city hall to meet mummy n aunt wif da jie... e' main purpose actualli is to collect my sandals.. :p wahaha.. :p walk n walk n walk.. i bought a new top.. wahaha.. :p n it's a black 1.. *blackk again??* ya.. it's black.. wahaha.. :p
everiwhere is havin sales.. omg omg... walk ard suntec.. n guess hu i saw?? TT GUY FR JEAN PERRY!!! tt 1 hu like to di di siao siao de.. serve mi durin e' expo sales tt tall tall thin thin guy... hu i always saw at e' staff canteen... it's him.. it's him... jean perry is havin sales at suntec... omg!!! shld pull rainie down to suntec n c if i hv e' chance to meet steven.. bump into him.. n get his no.!! wahaha.. :p great idea?? i'm gettin mad.. real mad abt him... izzit? wahaha.. :p watever.. bt he's a bit too beng liao le lar.. will he change for mi? wahaha.. i'm realli mad.. thinkin abt all e' impossible thgs.. wahaha.. -_-
i'm thinkin wanna buy tt watch fr raffles city.. $29... it's dam nice.. look nice on me too... bt.. i seldom wear watch leh.. buy already oso no use.. haiz.... better dun buy.. dun waste $$ ba.. :p or hint da jie to buy for my x'mas? wahaha.. -_- watever..
actualli wanna go run run juz now.. bt legs pain pain... da jie's legs oso pain.. so.. in e' end.. CANCELED! :p some other dae ba.. :p
~fernny~ crazy over him... *hint hint* guess hu's e' him..... *obvious*
oh ya.. feel so guilty.. didn realise sky called mi... so soli.. nv ans ur call.. :p *guilty guilty*
n lastli.. happi b'dae to some ppl out there...
11th dec ~ ling.. happi 19th b'dae to u.. :p miss u lots.. all e' best in everithg u do..
12th dec ~ sean.. my little cousin.. happi b'dae to u wor.. hope u enjoyed ur dae.. :p
caught a falling star @ 1:52 AM
song of e' dae...
Silver Bell
City sidewalks, busy sidewalks
Dressed in holiday style
In the air
There's a feeling of Christmas
Children laughing
People passing
Meeting smile after smile
And on ev'ry street corner you'll hear
Silver bells, silver bells
It's Christmas time in the city
Ring-a-ling, hear them sing
Soon it will be Christmas day
Strings of street lights
Even stop lights
Blink a bright red and green
As the shoppers rush home with their treasures
Hear the snow crunch
See the kids bunch
This is Santa's big scene
And above all this bustle
You'll hear
Silver bells, silver bells
It's Christmas time in the city
Ring-a-ling, hear them sing
Soon it will be Christmas day
a foto of mi wif snowman borders.. :p
taken after movie.. late at nite.. :p
caught a falling star @ 1:10 AM
Saturday, December 11, 2004
think on e' brighter side of life? forget everithg tt had passed.. oh plz.. how to... u guys keep askin mi to think on e' brighter side.. forget everithg... it's difficult.. or rather.. impossible... there's too mani thgs happened.. i realli dunno wat to do.. it's so confusin.. stop forcin me.. plz plz.. can i plz u guys.. i need to breath.. feel so helpless n loneli suddenli.. feel tt dis world is full of heartless bitch n bastard..
THERE'S NO LOVE IN THIS WORLD
WHERE IS THE LOVE?
HEARTBROKEN
~fernny~ argh!!!!! i oso dunno wat happened!!!
caught a falling star @ 1:31 AM
Friday, December 10, 2004
dam sian... juz fomat my comp.. wat e'... soooo mani prob again!!! argh!!!!!!!
watever.. a dae at hm.. woo~Hoo~ slpt e' whole dae... ya.. i swear... i slpt e' whole dae... *silly.. wat to swear?* wahaha.. :p watever.. did nth bt juz slp slp n slp.. wat a dae.. :p bt nice weather to slp ya?
didnt go run run in e' mornin.. cuz da jie couldn wake up.. LAZY PIG!!!
my hp seems so quiet 2dae... wahaha.. :p soooo slient.. so.. 2dae's blog song will be silent nite? ok.. :p haha.. well.. i think i'm goin crazy liao le...*maybe caused by too much slp ba..* wahaha.. :p
i'm goin crazy.. he drove mi crazy... ya rite? yes i think... i'm realli mad..
tryin to brainwash myself... I HATE HIM!! I HATE HIM!! I HATE HIM!!!
is dis a gd way to forget him? wahaha... watever.. let's try.. ppl.. BRAINWASH ME!! :p
~fernny~ tryin to find a new life? or better life?... well.. 2005 is comin.. new yr.. new life... haha.. :p stay happi ppl.. sMiLe..
Silent Night
Silent night, holy night,
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon virgin mother and child.
Holy infant so tender and mild,
Sleep in heavenly peace.
Sleep in heavenly peace.
Silent night, holy night,
Shepherds quake at the sight,
Glories stream from heaven afar,
Heavenly hosts sing alleluia;
Christ the Savior, is born!
Christ the Savior, is born!
Silent night, holy night,
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from thy holy face,
With the dawn of redeeming grace,
Jesus, Lord, at thy birth.
Jesus, Lord, at thy birth.
caught a falling star @ 11:48 PM
Frosty The Snowman
Frosty the snowman was a jolly happy soul
With a corncob pipe and a button nose
and two eyes made out of coal
Frosty the snowman is a fairy tale they say
He was made of snow but the children
know how he came to life one day
There must have been some magic in that
old silk hat they found
For when they placed it on his head
he began to dance around
O Frosty the snowman
was alive as he could be
And the children say he could laugh
and play just the same as you and me
Thumpetty thump thump
thumpety thump thump
Look at Frosty go
Thumpetty thump thump
thumpety thump thump
Over the hills of snow
Frosty the snowman knew
the sun was hot that day
So he said
"Let's run and
we'll have some fun
now before I melt away
" Down to the village
with a broomstick in his hand
Running here and there all
around the square saying
Catch me if you can
He led them down the streets of town
right to the traffic cop
And he only paused a moment when
he heard him holler "Stop!"
For Frosty the snow man
had to hurry on his way
But he waved goodbye saying
"Don't you cry
I'll be back again some day
" Thumpetty thump thump
thumpety thump thump
Look at Frosty go
Thumpetty thump thump
thumpety thump thump
Over the hills of snow
caught a falling star @ 12:18 AM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
wo yao ku le!!!!!
sad sad... afternoon cannot msg!!! cuz haven pay bill ba... wahaha... :p opps..
watever... after e' run.. went breakfast at e' market wif mummy n da jie... :) *yummie yum yum* den go marketin wif them... :p
went tpy wif da jie to collect my cable.. well.. again... i haven collect... actualli they sae ard 4.30 can collect.. cux whole of tpy dun hv liao le.. they need to send down fr hougang... so mi n da jie went novena sq walk walk... reserved a pair of sandal... wahaha.. :p goin to collect either tml or fri ba.. :p den hi-tea wif da jie.. soooo full.. *sinful* met christine.. den went back tpy.. hopin i can collect my cable.. in e' end..!!! na.. still muz wait.. wahaha.. :p it's e' 3rd time i went there liao lor.. last sat, tue n 2dae.. goin back on dis sat to collect ba.. :p
went down bugis wif da jie n christine... ate at my secret garden... *food nt nice* den went hm... :p n now slackin at hm... :p luckily.. i can sms again... :p woo~hoo~
gonna go for another run tml ba.. :p *da jie's idea* bt i dun wan... i'm real tire.. CMI!!!
well.. memories flash back...
i had enough... i dun wanna go into ani of e' relationship now... understand?
well.. chattin wif some frenz.. they all realli.. wahaha.. :p madae mi laugh.. thanx guys.. esp rainie n ah qing gege.. wahaha.. :p
to rainie... ya.. i'm les.. hv no interest in guys.. i love oli.. i like her... -_- wahaha.. :p
qing gege.... well.. thanx for cheerin mi up wor.. :p
~fernny~ opps such a long post.. thanx peepz... love u guys..
caught a falling star @ 10:19 PM
yoo~Hoo~ mornin everione... surprise? it's soooo earli.. 7.30 onli.. n i'm already awake... n my 3 presious nieces n nephew r still slpin... ON MY BED!!! wahaha.. :p wat?? wahaha.. lazy pig.. :p
woke up ard 6 dis mornin.. n went for a mornin run wif da jie.. feel soooo refresh now after a bathe... woo~hoo~
ard 8.. i'm goin to e' market wif mummy... wahaha.. :p
later... gonna go tpy to collect my cable.. hopefulli.. i'm able to collect... :p den to shop ard there for sandals n slippers i think... or shop for bottoms? wahaha.. :p watever.. gonna update again 2nite.. bye guys... n mornin... :p
~fernny~ mornin..
caught a falling star @ 7:34 AM
O Come, All Ye Faithful
O come, all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant,
Come ye, O come ye, to Bethlehem.
Come and behold Him, born the King of angels;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
True God of true God,
Light from Light Eternal,
Lo, he shuns not the Virgin's womb;
Son of the Father, begotten, not created;
Sing, choirs of angels, sing in exultation;
Sing, all ye citizens of heaven above!
Glory to God, all glory in the highest;
See how the shepherds, summoned to
His cradle, Leaving their flocks, draw nigh to gaze;
We too will thither bend our joyful footsteps;
Child, for us sinners poor and in the manger,
We would embrace Thee, with love and awe;
Who would not love Thee, loving us so dearly?
Yea, Lord, we greet Thee, born this happy morning;
Jesus, to Thee be glory given;
Word of the Father, now in flesh appearing.
caught a falling star @ 12:49 AM
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
argh argh argh!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MOOD!!! ya.. so wat if i hv mood swing? non of ur business!!!!
juz format my comp... wat e'.. no speaker.. no music... will die u noe.. so mani thgs dun hv... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!
caught a falling star @ 10:23 PM
haiyo... love sick again... :( wahaha.. :p can u imagine? haiz.... :(
*drinkin my burborn coke now... yummie yum yum*
i think my eye sight gettin bad to worst.. die die.... it's 6.. i c as 8... ? as 7.. wat e'.... watever...
love sick...
i realise.. e' more i tok 2 u.. e' more i c u.. my love for u grew...
bt.. i juz dun hv e' courage to tell u tt i like u.. i wanna to be wif u...
do u like mi? or u juz treat mi as a fren?
e' moment i c u.. my heart started to beat faster n faster..
is tt love? or it's juz lust?
wen i find out tt u like someone else..
my heart hurt..
juz like a knife had pierce into my heart..
n my heart bleed for u..
it bleeds non stop..
n onli u could stop e' bleed..
bt wen will u heal my wounds?
now? later? or neverr??
~fernny~ love sickkkkk.... :(
caught a falling star @ 8:42 PM
aha aha.... went to heeren in e' mornin? or afternoon? liew.. dunno lar... den went tpy to collect my cable... :p in e' end... oso nv collect... :(
went heeren.. actualli wanna buy er jie's frenz de present.. in e' end.. i oso bought a present for someone.. aha.. shh.. dun tell hu.. :p walk all e' way to taka.. walk ard.. den went tpy.. wat e' cannot collect my cable yet.. hafta go back on thu to collect... sooooo troublesome sia.. :( watever...
went to tpy library to borrow some bks.. den to novena.. bought e' curle thg.. make my hair wavy wavy de.. watever.. :p den i bought my CANDY CANE.... yummie.. :p burborn coke again.. yummie.... :p
die die... i'm broke.... no money.... realli dunno how i'm gonna survive now.. argh!! somemore.. dajie suggest to hv an exchange of prezzie.. wat e' no $$ liao.. argh!!!!!!!!
noe wat... i msg quite a few of u guys gd mornin msg.. in e' mornin or noon... in e' end.. some of u guys received at ard 4.. i oso dunno y.. bt.. i swear.. i send ard noon time... okok.. :( dun scold mi liao le okok.. :p
aha.. sky called mi juz now.. stupid guy... wahaha.. :p
chatted wif eugene after tt.. :p
argh!!! i'm mad 2dae... dam mad.. dam crazy... argh!!! it's all caused by him.... he had made mi mad... he msged mi in e' afternoon......... argh!!! watever....
no.. no no no no no!!!!! i'm nt fallin for anione of u!!!!!!!!!!!
~fernny~ STOP THAT!!! i noe u guys r juz playin rite... :p enough liao okok..
caught a falling star @ 1:40 AM
wahaha.. :p gonna change my blog song everidae...
1st song it was.... hark e' herald angels sing
Hark! the herald angels sing
Glory to the new-born King!
Peace on earth and mercy mild,
God and sinners reconciled!
Joyful, all ye nations, rise,
Join the triumph of the skies;
With the angelic host proclaim
Christ is born in Bethlehem!
Hark! the herald angels sing
Glory to the new-born King!
Christ, by highest heaven adored;
Christ, the everlasting Lord;
Late in time behold him come,
Offspring of the Virgin's womb.
Veiled in flesh the Godhead see;
Hail the incarnate Deity,
Pleased as man with man to dwell;
Jesus, our Emmanuel!
Mild he lays his glory by,
Born that man no more may die,
Born to raise the sons of earth,
Born to give them second birth.
Risen with healing in his wings,
Light and life to all he brings,
Hail, the Sun of Righteousness!
Hail, the heaven-born Prince of Peace!
Hail the Heaven-born Prince of Peace
Hail the Son of Righteousness
Light and life to all
He brings Risen with healing in
His wings Mild He lay His glory by
Born that man no more may die
Come Desire of Nations come,
Fix in us thy humble home.
Rise, the woman's conquering
Seed, Bruise in us the serpent's head.
Adam's likeness now efface
Stamp thine image in its place
2nd song (playin now).. e' first noel
The first Noel, the angel did say,
Was to certain poor shepherds in fields as they lay;
In fields where they lay keeping their sheep,
On a cold winter's night that was so deep.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
They looked up and saw a star
Shining in the East,
beyond them far;
And to the earth it gave great light,
And so it continued both day and night.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
And by the light of that same star,
Three wise men came from country far;
To seek for a King was their intent,
And to follow the star wherever it went.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
This star drew night to the northwest,
O'er Bethlehem it took its rest;
And there it did both stop and stay,
Right over the place where Jesus lay.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
Then entered in those wise men three,
Full reverently upon their knee;
And offered there in his presence,
Their gold, and myrrh,
and frankincense.
Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel,
Born is the King of Israel.
caught a falling star @ 1:11 AM
Monday, December 06, 2004
merry x'mas ppl... wahaha.. :p i'm already in e' festival mood liao le... wahaha... :p hey ppl.. rmb my x'mas present.. esp 'daddy'.. u promise de wor... n oso e' lite thg... i'll nv forget.. :p wahaha..
well... actualli wanna go tpy collect my cable de.. bt.. no time.. sob sob... :( den wanna go out wif umar they all.. in e' end.. cannot...argh!! so soli leh... i totalli forgotten abt e' celebration till ydae nite...
had a v full brunch n dinner.. wahaha.. :p lots of food... it's granny's b'dae celebration... soooo mani food to eat.... sooooooooooo full.. wahaha.. :p tt's all for 2dae i think.. :p
~fernny~ fat piggy here... :p
caught a falling star @ 10:18 PM
Sunday, December 05, 2004
havin headache now.... argh!!! maybe cuz of tt cab....... ::(
woke up quite late todae too.. :p tire sia.. real tire.. gonna slp earli 2dae... i'm feelin sleepy noe liao le... as usual.. did nth in dis sundae... exp hsewrk... :p
went swimmin juz now.. evening time... :p
juz came back fr swimmin... went to da jie's fren, nicole da jie, de sis de condo swim den jacuzzi... swim till 10.. den went to bath.. den went to nicole da jie sis de hse makan... bread pudding... nice u noe... 1st time noe there's sth call bread pudding.. n... it's a hot pudding.. nt cold de... wahaha.. :p a short bt tire dae...
~fernny~ tire!!!!!! :p
caught a falling star @ 11:22 PM
gd mornin... tire tire tire!!! juz reached hm.... went to watch w/o a paddle... nice show... dam dam funny u noe... laugh till..............
woke up quite late 2dae.. almost 1.. cuz slpt late ydae nite okok.. :p went tpy buy my cable for my hp... wat e'... they gave mi e' wrong cable... well.. goin back to change on mon... cuz quiite rush 2dae...
went dinner 2dae.. cousin's weddin... tire man!!! food there... argh!!! nan chi!! er xin... e' service there!!! same... nth to sae.. speechless... after tt... like last week... we went for movie wif e' same ppl.. me, da jie, er jie n eugene.. at marina... dam nice okok... funny show.. opps.. i'd mention tt.. watever... :p went to opp 7-11 buy ice cream... wanna buy my E33 de... bt... dun hv.. sob sob.. in e' end ice cream.... tire... cya ppl.. nite nite sweety dreamz.......
i'm tire!!! gastric pain... well.. i think i ate too mani spicy thgs dis few daes... n all dis cause my gastric ba... :(
~fernny~ misses everione... him him him him him!!! wahahaha... :p n rainie too.. she's at genting now... soo gd.. can go genting.. oh ya.. i oso went oversea dis yr...... wahaha.. :p n tt's sentosa... L-A-M-E
caught a falling star @ 2:49 AM
Saturday, December 04, 2004
opps... sc.. we chatted till 1.30... omg omg.. i didn realise e' time... wahaha.. :p btw... forgotten to sae... thanx for ur gift... like it.. thanx thanx.. :p esp e' flower candle.... thanx thanx thanx... wahaha... :p
~fernny~ i miss u guys.....
caught a falling star @ 3:00 PM
quite a happi n sad dae ba.. ?? dunno??
well.. juz reached hm... indeed... i nv go sentosa... last min cancel again... nt e' 1st time lor.. sob sob.. watever... dis is e' sad part...
met sc n fishy... wanna go watch movie... walk to cine.. den i went to find alice for a while to take my $$... met 'daddy' n 4 of us went to watch e' polar express..... nt a bad movie... quite funny actualli... :p after movie.. went coffee bean drink drink... tok tok.. n my stupid 'daddy'... use my hp n take his pic... soooo zhi lian.. wahaha.... after tt.. walk to heeren to meet benny n jr... wanna eat marche... soooo mani ppl.. in e' end.. wanna go back paragon makan de... worst... sooo mani ppl again... den walk to scotts... we ate ajisen.. no ppl... :p after hm sweet hm... tok 2 sc till 12++ den reach hm... wahaha... :p
well.. wat a claz.. gatherin became... SHIT lar.. onli me, sc, fishy, jr n benny... wat e'.. bt glad tt 'daddy' joined us...
well.. finalli.. i can feel tt x'mas is comin... after walkin along orchard... n polar express... wahaha.. both make mi feel x'mas is comin.... wahaha... :p
well.. enjoy bein wif them todae... realli enjoy myself.. woo~hoo~... well quite tire to sae animore.. will tell u guys more abt 2dae.. no... is ydae...
~fernny~ realli enjoyed my dae... :p
oh ya... forgotten to sae.. i saw oli 2dae.. at cine.. woo~hoo~ soo mani ppl wanna take foto wif her sia... n oso... I GOT MY PAY!!! finally... n oso.... sc noe xueting oso... e' world is juz sooo small.. wahaha.. :p
caught a falling star @ 1:52 AM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
boooo.... didn go c.s 2dae.. opps.. did i mention tt.. watever.. :p watever.. alan came to meet mi for a while.. tok for a while b4 meetin his fren... well.. felt quite relive after tokin to him.. aha.. :p live has to go on... ya rite... :p
thinkin abt e' sentosa trip tml.. will it be successful? argh!! i dunno.. cant contact quite a few ppl... *speechless* watever... julie n benny gt sch... cyc gt training... jako n kat wrkin.. all cannt go.. sooo sad... watever... 'daddy' sae he's wrkin startin tml.. nt joinin us tml.. sob sob.. well.. all e' best 'daddy' hope u enjoy ur job..
i'm tire... i oso dunno wat i wanna sae here... wahaha.. :p btw.. i wanna cut my hair.. shld i? yes? no? cut short short.. shoulder length? erm... dunno leh... shld i? shld i?? argh!!!!!! i dunno lar..... haiz...
idiot blossom.. dun wanna tell mi wen he's comin back.. juz sae.. soon lar soon lar.. wat e'... tob keep changin topic.. wat e'... aloy comin back next sun.. woo~hoo~ haha... :p miss them..
~fernny~ miss everione.. miss him.. miss him.. miss him........ wahaha... :p *opps.. 3 diff him.. 3 diff ppl wor..*
think i'm gonna sick soon.. been sneezin n coughin 2dae.. all thnx to my sis....... argh!!!
caught a falling star @ 8:54 PM
aha... it's mi.. 2dae will be blue colour time.. woo~hoo~ i'm crazy... real crazy liao le... omg omg omg!!! watever... time flies.. tml... 4e2 claz gatherin liao le.. sooo fast.. 1 yr had passed... bt.. it's like... argh!! *speechless* everione dun wanna reply our msg... wat e'... i already goin to gv up liao le... sooo sad u noe... haiz... watever....
i skipped my C.S 2dae.. na.. i'm nt goin... well.. alan sae he'll be comin to my hse later... let's c.. maybe for a drink.. i dunno... i oso dunno wat i'm gonna type here... i'm juz tired of all dis thg.. tire of everithg... tire of livin here.. tire of livin in dis world!!!!!!!!
~fernny~ wen can i c him again?
sth to share...
kiss - because i'm a girl..
a korean mtv... nice n touching...
caught a falling star @ 2:16 PM
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
sly sang an jing again....... bt i think *ahem* sing much better den sly... opps.. memories* haiz.. as i sae... memories.. memories = past... bt i still miss him badly... he's still nt back... do i still hv e' chance to meet him? c him? juz for a min.. a sec.. i'll still be happi....
watever.. went shaw wif mummy to buy sth... n noe wat.. i saw 'daddy' wahaha... soooo qiao.. he was waitin for his fren there.... i'm tire now.. watchin s'pore idol.. miss e' chance to watch at s'pore indoor stadium... argh!!! i gave e' tick to janice.... sooo.. hu'll win?? taufik? sly? aha.... dunno.....
~fernny~ since he sang an jing to mi.. i'll sing jie kou in return....
an jing.... (in eng)
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello
Quiet and so old
I think you've made yourself clear
I know and I'm sure
You don't regret
You say you're upset too, that I don't believe
You being with me was in the past
I hope he loves you more than I do
Only then will I bring myself to leave
You want me to say it, but it is awkward
I don't even want to break up
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
I don't have the ability
To accept both you and him
Don't worry too much
I'll still be fine
You've already gone far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why is it that I have to accommodate you even when [we] break up?
I really don't have the ability
Staying silent doesn't come so fast
I will learn to give you up
Because I love you so much
jie kou.... (in eng)
Flipping through our photographs, thoughts of [you] are visible yet invisible
Last year's winter, we laughed very sweetly
Watching your tearstained face, telling me goodbye
[I] have yet to hear it when you've already walked so far
Perhaps you have already given up on me, perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back
I know it's all my fault, please give me another reason, say you don't love me
Even if I don't understand, can [you] forgive me?
Please don't use parting (breakup) as your request
I know wanting to go is your wound's excuse
[Can] you please turn back, I will accompany you until the very end
Even if there is no conclusion, I can still endure
I know your pain is the promise I gave
You said [you] gave me tolerance, and silence was because of acceptance
If [you] want to go, please remember me, if [you] feel sad, please forget me
caught a falling star @ 9:07 PM
caught a falling star @ 1:35 PM
pinky time.. wahaha... :p i'm mad.. realli mad... argh!! woke up earli 2dae.. cuz of e' gems thg.. haiz... wat e'... left wif sooo little choice... haiz.. watever... choose entrepreneurship... i wanna slp again.. bt maybe later ba.. dun intend to go out 2dae.. so can slp..
i'm reali tire... tire of everithg... everi little thg... can someone plz tell mi wat i wanna do or wat i need to do? i dunno.. feel soooo helpless n loneli suddenli... it seems like i'm livin on a world of my own... i need to stand by myself... i oso dunno wat's goin on... argh!!!
watever.. blossom n toby.. wen will u guys be back.. i miss u guys... :p
~fernny~ cryin silentli..
caught a falling star @ 11:19 AM